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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

Last Updated: 28.06.2025 01:36

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

I know ,a lot about trauma.

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

Why do we exist, and why are we conscious?

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

When she asked me how she looked .

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

What should I do to get over a relationship?

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

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And who doesn’t know suffering?

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

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He knew the spot.

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

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I was seconnd youngest,

Im dying but, im not bitter.

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

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I was writing from the time i was a small child.

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

Especially a lifetime of it.

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I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

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But, we were locked up after school.

(And it was in our own minds.)

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

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One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

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Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

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But it wasn’t much.

It was going to be , some day.

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

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Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

I write beautiful poetry .

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

She was in good health!

We were not on the streets..

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

I waited trembling.

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

This is soul school!.

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

I have no regrets .

So, i spoilt her more .

Why did i forgive my father ?

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

He was dying to do it , i knew.

Im still living with it.

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

He resisted the act ,that day.

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

I never cut or harmed myself..

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

And i lived it daily.

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

I said to her

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

Would this be the day?

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

She wouldn,t have been !

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

My mum and dad in the seventies!

I was very sick at this time too.

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

My family never makes their pension either.

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

I did it because my mum asked me too!

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

All the time i was locked up.

I was scared of men, in general

They are buried together, in the same grave..

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

I could never make a relationship work though!

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

I will be 64.

But ive been too sick for many years..

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

So whats the point in blame.

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

Was to survive, this bastard.

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

We all went to grammer schools

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

One cannot live in the past .

I couldn’t, believe it.

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

She married twice! .

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

Put me off passion for life!!

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

I had hoped to write a book about this .

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

I think the readers, may guess!

This is how, and why children get BPD.

My life is so biszare .

Who then, do I blame.?

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

I was 9 years of age.

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

On the 31st of Jan this month .

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

Comes on , in middle age.

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

As i do to all so called friends.?

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

The only rule us 5 kids had .

I don,t even have a pension.

She loved him until the end.

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

She found it foreign!.

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

What did i know ?

Ive learnt so much.